everyone is reproducing

Seems like lately everyone is pregnant or just had a baby. Last week two more friends announced buns in the oven. My sister in law is due in a few weeks and my brother/sister in law are talking about trying for another one in the next few months. I am left wondering, is it selfish of me to not want another one?

I feel like I've struck gold with Monkeyface. He is the greatest kid ever. I know every momma thinks their offspring are the best and brightest, but I truly feel this way about my son. How would I ever be able to love someone as much as I love him? I know it can be done. I am from a family of 3 kids and I know my parents love us all. But for different reasons and on some level in my heart brain, I think different degrees of love.  Does my dad love me the same way/amount as my brother? I think not. Is that a bad thing. By no means, but I'm wondering if the love they have for my brother and sister was diminished any when I came around.

I don't think I could love anyone like I love my son. I don't think I want to try. Does that make me a bad person. Maybe. But you know what? I'm ok with that. Just as I'm ok with everyone else reproducing (ok-most everyone else). That's the great thing with living in a society of free will and independence. You get to decide what is right for you. So for now I will be happy to play with nephews and the one niece I have thus far, oh and my Monkeyface. Hopefully in the future he won't ask for a brother or sister to play with. I just don't see that in the cards for you little man.

McFatty Mondays

Here it goes... week 2.... official weigh in is 196.


I lost a pound. Not much in the grand scheme of things but giving that I didn't really do anything to lose weight I'm happy. I didn't exercise at all this week. BLAH, i hate it when i don't exercise. But i did watch what i was eating to an extent. There were days when i think i barely ate 1500 calories but then others when it seemed like all i did was eat.

looking back at the week i must say that over all being one pound less than i was last week is a good thing.