better

who knew how cathartic writing can be. I know everyone always says it and I have known its "magical" powers before but sometimes its nice to just let it all out. it's like as soon as you do a weight is lifted off your shoulders. whether you share it by actually posting it on your blog or keep it to yourself by writing on a piece of paper that you end up throwing away. letting go of what you're keeping inside is amazing. i know its not healthy to keep it bottled up but sometimes it seems harder to admit it. even to yourself.

i feel so much better today and the dark cloud has dimmed. i am actually looking forward to adam's party this weekend. I don't think i could have said that yesterday.

now i just have to remember to let it all out sooner rather than bottling it up for so long. :)

feel like crying

today has been a bad day. from the start.

i just want to curl up on my bed with my blanky and go to bed.

it seems like life is just piling it on today. just when i think that i can make it work something else goes wrong.

i can't seem to get a grip on things today.

it feels like there's a bubble i can't get out of. i feel trapped in my life.

i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel today. 

its like some one turned it out while i was sleeping and i can't find the switch. 

hopefully i can go to bed tonight and tomorrow the switch will be within my reach.

my son deserves better than this.

my daughter deserves better than this.

I  deserve better than this.